Monday, April 16, 2012

I'll Stand (Even if it means using crutches)

It's been over a month since my last post for several reasons but I'm not too upset about it and don't feel the need to list the excuses :)  I've had a lot going on with the school year coming to an end and on top of preparing for final projects and exams, I've been on crutches for the last 2 weeks and have a good 10 weeks more of hobbling around.

Let me fill you in... Like I mentioned in a previous post I broke my foot early this spring season and after several failed attempts to heal it non-surgically, surgery ended up being the best option. I spent the last week or so in a cast before going into surgery Thursday morning. It all went well and I am now in a hideous old plaster splint thing with two screws holding my bones together. After 9 more weeks of casts and crutches the two screws should fix the foot problem for good. Needless to say everything takes longer on crutches and I've had to pray for extra patience as I learn to get around at a bit slower pace.

Frustration has been a big part of my life lately as having one leg completely out of commission doesn't exactly make life easier. I can't do the things I'm used to doing or even if I can the speed at which I do them is definitely slower. I have to sit and watch soccer practice, I couldn't participate in the athlete dodge-ball tournament that I won last year, (remember?) and even something as simple as making a bowl of cereal takes 10 minutes and lots of creativity. It's exhausting, time consuming, painful, and FRUSTRATING. I know God is teaching me something through all this even if I don't know exactly what it is yet. As hard as it is to trust his plans and timing I know that both are perfect and I must submit to his will in ALL areas of my life.

I will make it through! and how fitting? the song that iTunes is playing as I write is The Stand by Kristian Stanfill

"I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
I'll stand my soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is yours."