Snap Shots

Here are some pictures from a walk my roommate and I took this weekend! We had fun running and sliding on ice, observing stairs instead of running them, and just chatting about life! LOVE LOVE LOVE life!

Some selective coloring

The stadium stairs that we DIDN'T have to run

Ice that was perfectly slippery!

Plugged In

Plugged in

Ask any teenager and they’ll tell you what a bore this world is

the vibrant colors of fall might as well be black and white like

newspapers read only for the comics as the world bleeds red ink on the second page like

red roses in a perfect bouquet but their not for you so why do you smile when he walks your way?

Plugged in

Smoking buds purchased with wasted passion of bright minds now go in ears and

Jersey Shore has nothing to do with beaches but everyone listens and

getting to know each other on a deeper level means watching 3D movies with

his tongue so far down your throat he can taste your regret.

Times have changed

Change became dollars and pennies for change are tails up on your ass and it’s your fault.

If you’d pay attention to something other than the beats your beats are dropping

your joints might be sore instead of lit

but the world’s beauty is skin deep and hearts leak blood but it's just black and white ink

Plugged in

Only one ear is chord less as you pretend to be concerned with problems, condoms, 

and then a baby blossoms watered by beer and raspberry vodka

spiked with fear, it’s not clear but blind, this time

a sparkling diamond tented red by the blood of enslaved African children and

you bought it, so own it because maybe your own blood is on it

Plugged in

Undivided attention just means it’s carved up between my mouth and your tears like

A steal blade through tense air if only you had cared enough to unplug your damn ears

You can’t keep plugging your ears and tears trying to stop fear so

here’s advice though you won’t hear my mouth say but I'll stumble over the emotion and pain

just to tell you that

Plugging in doesn’t solve anything

Ef Sea Eh?

Time just seems to be flying by as it is almost March, spring season starts next sunday, and I only have two more months of school. Like I mentioned in a previous post, practices are starting earlier and though I'm an early person I find it difficult to do anything after 8:30pm (stupid biological clock). So as much as I struggle to funtion I determined that a few things need to take priority over sleep on occasion and this week God and fellowship ranked above sleep.

I was back home in Colorado Springs most of the day monday and I missed both Bible studies that I normally attend. When tuesday came around I was exhuasted from the long day of drivinmg and would have been happy to sleep in, skip class, and eat whatever and whenever I pleased. Instead of taking a mental health day I managed to fit a much needed nap into my schedule so that I could go to FCA. I love everything about FCA (Fellowship of Christian Athletes) except for the fact that it starts at 9:00pm to accomodate all the athletes who practice later. Bythe grace of God, I wasn't too tired when 9:00pm rolled around so I trudged through the snow with my bible, some computer paper to draw/ take notes on, and a pen (usually it's a pencil but I couldn't find one in time).

Their was an incredible message about God's UNCONDITIONAL love for me and it was exactly what I needed to hear. I realized that the bible studies on monday usually get my mind in the right place for the entire week and without them I felt a bit lost and alone. Though I was tired and had to doodle to stay focued on the message, God called me to be at FCA that night because He knew that I needed to spiritually filled up by his love more than anything else!

So here's the doodle that came of my tiredness.

P.S. "Ef Sea Eh?" is what's on the FCA shirts this year and since I didn't get a shirt I thought I'd share my love for it's creativity here.

Slow Motion

A friend and I are going through a Beth Moore Bible study called "Living Free" and it's INCREDIBLE! I would recommend it to anyone! There is something in it for everyone whether you're a new Christian or have been living in His grace and mercy for years.

Anyways, one of the lessons ends with this challenge:

"Would you end your day's assignment with a field trip?...Go for a walk with God. Just ask Him to fill you with a soul full of Jesus."

So that's exactly what I did! I put on my hoodie, coat, and boots and headed out. I brought my camera to snap a few pics of my stroll with God and happened to catch a few great shots!

I came to realize in those 45 minutes that I NEED more time to clear my head than I've been giving myself. I felt as though God replayed my busy life through my mind in slow motion so that I could get a grip on everything that I felt was getting out of hand. For the first time in a while, I was able to make sense of things that I struggle to wrap my mind around everyday. 

I really need to do this more often!