As if my feelings were constant
but they sway back in forth between unrest and silence
so quiet
you try to trace the words as they roll off my tongue but nothing comes of it
You kept me sharing though each of your seconds translated to another minute of my guilt
searing the depths of my heart raising blisters filled with lost tears on my lungs like
they never found worthy eyes to fall from
but you listened as my every breath poured my story out
Then my head began to throb and my cry for help made your ears go numb
You try to listen but by engaging my demons you bought them like
the fine china you broke in the store and can’t part from
The metaphor ends there because you can’t share my secrets
though they were harvested by your hands but life isn’t china’s communism
You embraced me with hands that never physically came near me
Fearing the broken piece of glass in my grasp would shred your genuine concern
But you’re left dodging shards as they pierce my heart and it’s permanent
only my skin would bare the signs of the sharp end of it.
My skin is scarred and hands calloused from digging my own grave
If only my grip would just slip from the ledge of guilt I cling to
But my insecurities are a noose around my neck and there’s no where to escape to
Now I’m left hanging by the ledge over the same grave that I dug for you.
Because once you’re involved you can’t back out and
before I could warn you, you stuck your neck out and
fell victim to the silent words that I said
and now we’re hanging side by side over two graves
swinging back
and forth
I wish I was here |
as if we were already dead.