Value

It's been a while since I've posted and there's no good reason for it but hopefully I'll get back on top of things.

This is a completely unrelated picture other than the
fact that I did go on a hike Friday morning 

The past few days have been filled with new experiences and God made himself known in every one. I completed my clinicals to become a CNA (certified nursing assistant) and I'm definitely going to miss working at the nursing home and taking care of all the residents there. In the small amount of time I worked there I felt God laying one thing in particular on my heart. This world is not our home! The money we have earned, the things we have bought nor the accomplishments we've worked for will matter when we reach the end of our life here on this earth. In the nursing home we have a man who has his doctorate and used to be the lead veterinary researcher at UW, we have a man who served in WWII and has more honor medals than any soldier I've ever met, we have a women who paints landscapes full of color and life, but we also have a women who was an alcoholic for so long that she now has alcoholic dementia, we have a man who has been homeless for years and returns cans to get enough money to eat at the nursing home. All of these peoples' lives before the nursing home were much different some were educated and living the high life, some were free spirited movement leaders, and others never escaped the poor life they were born into but now they all live in one place, cared for in the same way and fed the same food regardless of their income or quality of life before. I imagine this is what heaven will be like (but hopefully with better food). It will be a place where people lose all sense of materialism while they share the exact same abundant life.

On a completely different note, I spent nearly my entire day with the Schultz family and I loved every minute of it from planting tomato plants outside to reading books to a their little girl snuggling in my arms. My intentions were not to stay over for very long but there's something about their family that made me want to continue to stay.

I'm reading this book called Captivating that details the wonders of a women's heart and it asks a question that I couldn't answer until yesterday "what is your irreplaceable roll?" and I realized that being irreplaceable doesn't mean no one else can ever fill that roll it just mean that in that moment I was the only one who could. I felt irreplaceable all day even thought I wasn't doing anything profound and was more of an "extra" to the scene but when I was reading with their little girl it gave her mom a chance to get some things done and I was able to grab ingredients or entertain the kids while the parents were occupied in the kitchen making our dinner. Though if I hadn't been there they would have found ways to get everything done while keeping the kids and dog entertained and out of trouble, I still felt irreplaceable because I had made their life just a little bit easier. God showed me that who I am and what I do does have value and is important.